alone

sometimes I feel more fulfilled being alone than being with everyone.
It's not because I'm an introvert but I feel more true to myself when I'm alone than being with them. Whenever I'm with my blockmates I feel like I'm pretending to be someone that I'm not just to be liked by them. It's because my attitude was too different from them. I'm afraid that I would say something they don't like whenever I'm having a conversations with them.
I love making friends. I'm happy and witty person. But I don't want to be oblige to make friends even though i know i should because they're gonna be with me for the rest of my college life.
I have nothing against with them i't just that i couldn't ride on with their trips. They're not doing anything against me also since the first day of class. Basically, this is just my opinion.
I'm not also closing myself to them. This was just the first sem and i know there will come a time for me to finally enjoy myself with them. And I really want it to happen. Just have to find ways for it. Someday, I'll be more transparent even with myself already.