audition freaks

I auditioned at AB Chorale. Though I've been through a lot of auditions already, I still can't avoid having jitters. I was really nervous yesterday while I was singing. I've been performing on stage since I was a grader but I still don't have to be assured that I was going to make it. I need prayers. I don't understand why I'm still having that audition hangovers after all those years. I wish I could do it.