nakakainis!!!

nranasan nio n bng may pilit kaung nilalayong tao (yup..nilalayo kasi nilalayo ko xa sa friends ko) pero patuloy nmang nangungulit?!

as in..

nakakainis na..

hanggang dito b nman??

aww..kakaasar..andito na xa andito na xa..haha..

so if ever guluhin nia buhay nio, sabihin nio lng skin ha..

or kung magfeeling close xa just inform me ok??

ndi ko n lng inenename kung cno..basta sbihin nio n lng ukies??

nakikisama ako ng husto s knya..haha..anyway..sana may makabasa nito..

i'm not emotionally taken anymore!!!

aww..i don't like being tagged..don't have enough time ksi..kaya macy..saka na lng ung about the ten things churva na un ah..hehe

anyway..my vacation is too long already..hay..i'm so bored..well i should be used to it already but i don't know how long would my vacation takes..

naloloka na talaga ko..i don't know what to say..should i share the status of my heart??!!haha..

oh yes! i'm so happy kasi malaya na ako!haha..actually kahit kelan nman ay wala pang umaaangkin sa puso ko.. pero xempre ilan sa mga curse ng pagiging in love ay ang paglimot mo sa sarili mong kasiyahan dahil merong nakacapture ng puso mo pero ndi nman eto inalagaan..huwah..

i'm proud to be single!haha..at least..no headaches..no heartaches..and no tears..lol

aba..masisira ang jolly image ko dahil sa kanya..haha..

masaya ako na nalagpasan ko na ang bitterness stage!

aun lng..ang importante ay nakakahinga na ko ng maluwag ngaun..

salamat sa mga taong nakinig sa'kin..mwah!

so guys..ano pang inaantay nio! nyak! jox lng un..hehe..

i'm happy..simply happy

taking advantage of my feelings

kung saan saan na ko nglabas ng sama ng loob..pero ndi pa rin mawala ang galit sa puso ko..

napakahirap talaga kapag ang isang tao ay aware sa nararamdaman mo para sa kanya..alam nia kasing kahit anong mangyari ay hindi mo xa matitiis..kahit kailan ay ndi mo magagawang magalit sa kanya.. but we all have our limitations..and i guess nasa limit na ko..

ayoko na..mahirap magsalita ng tapos pero ngaun ayoko na..maaring kainin ko ang mga sinasabi ko ngaun in the near future but all i have in my heart now is sama ng loob..

sama ng loob para sa taong mahal ko..after all kahit ano pang pangit sa kanya,tinanggap ko.. lahat ng negative attitudes nya, tinanggap ko..martyr na kung martyr.. un ang pinakapangit sa sobrang pagmamahal.. pero wla nman akong natatanggap mula sa kanya..

lagi xang nagsasabing mahal nia ko..ako namn tong si tanga..lagi namang naniniwala.. bulag sa katotohanan na nagttake advantage lng xa skin..masyado ko kc siyang pinapamper and all.. i'm always the one who's making the effort..

maxado na atang lumaki ang ulo niya at nakalimutan na niya ang nararamdaman ko.. oo,,pinapasaya niya ko at pinaparamdam na mahal nia ko..ngunit minsan lang yun.. pabagobago.. ayoko na..pagod na ko..

mahirap magmukhang tanga and super clueless sa nararamdamn nia para sa'kin..

ayokong magpakadesperada..un ang pinakaleast kong gustong mangyari sa buhay ko..

kaya i'm setting myself free..tulad ng paglipad nia palayo sakin..

sana maging masaya siya sa buhay nia..

wag sana niyang asahan na pagbalik niya ay ako pa rin ang dating aj na pinaglaruan niya lang ang damdamin..

alone

sometimes I feel more fulfilled being alone than being with everyone.
It's not because I'm an introvert but I feel more true to myself when I'm alone than being with them. Whenever I'm with my blockmates I feel like I'm pretending to be someone that I'm not just to be liked by them. It's because my attitude was too different from them. I'm afraid that I would say something they don't like whenever I'm having a conversations with them.
I love making friends. I'm happy and witty person. But I don't want to be oblige to make friends even though i know i should because they're gonna be with me for the rest of my college life.
I have nothing against with them i't just that i couldn't ride on with their trips. They're not doing anything against me also since the first day of class. Basically, this is just my opinion.
I'm not also closing myself to them. This was just the first sem and i know there will come a time for me to finally enjoy myself with them. And I really want it to happen. Just have to find ways for it. Someday, I'll be more transparent even with myself already.

enough of loving

exxxxxxxaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmsssssssssss..
I'm really exerting superduper extra effort to study well on my subjects. But why is it I'm having a hard time to remember all i've studied when the test paper is right in front of me already..arrggh..
History! i've studied it all night! the worst is the proctor thought that I was cheating..huhu.. i don't have much answers either when I passed my paper. And I swear I don't cheat. hhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaayyyyy.. i'm so depressed..

still in pain..

it was really wrong to wait for someone to fall in love with you. Especially when the one you're waiting for isn't aware that you're waiting..*sigh*

friendship?love?

"friendship and love"
It's quite hard to separate those two.
It is even harder if you have to choose one among them. The more you try to stay 'laid-back' on the situation, the more it backfires you with so much stinging.. too much pain to the point where your effing heart becomes numb anf you don't know what to feel anymore..
The worst part?
He doesn't even have a clue.. you'r hurting so much but you kinda like it . Your system just can't master the guts to leave him. YOU JUST CAN"T.


I wish i didn't fall for a friend. Because this feeling would never end. There is so much pain in my heart whenever I see him because I know that is all we ever could be.