I just felt the urge to say this stuffs..

I'm so sad..

for the people I've always trusted and cared of are the ones who will make me so down these days.

*sigh*

I hate this feeling.

Chagrin on Himig Lycean 2009

Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Before you continue reading this blog. Let me remind you. I'm happy winning as the 2nd place of Himig Lycean 2009. No more issues about not winning it. I am thankful. I'm happy that I had a chance to share my passion to all the Lyceans, and that is performing. What I will be talking about on this blog was the side of people who are concern in this contest.

First, last February 21, 2009 was the elimination round of Himig Lycean. The ten finalists were announced. One girl against the nine boys. I have been preparing my singing battle with the boys already until last Wednesday, the Lyceum Chorale (organizer of the contest) called for a rehearsal for our production number on the upcoming finals. When I entered the rehearsal room, I was expecting to see an all-boy group practicing. But I was surprised because their are 2 girls practicing for the Dreamgirls number already. I asked who are they and Kuya Art (President of L. Chorale) told me that they are the wildcards. Oh Okay. I didn't ask for details anymore. I practiced the number with the wildcards. And I was also surprised that the picture of the wildcards were in the Tarpaulin already! My gosh! they had just informed me just that very day and then I would see that they know already that they were competing in the finals even before me knowing it!!! So now we are 12 finalists already. Even the guy finalists were telling that there should be no wildcards. WHAT'S THE SENSE OF HAVING ELIMINATION ROUND?

When I got home, I texted the other eliminated contestants if they know about the wildcard thing. And they told me NO! THEY DON"T KNOW THAT THERE WILL BE WILDCARDS. Isn't it unfair for them? A lot of them complained because they didn't know how did the 2 came up as the wildcards. There should have been a WILDCARD ROUND to make it formal!

The day after, I told my barkada about it and they were also disappointed. They were asking how did the 2 made it. Is it because of the popularity tickets? or their average? how about the other eliminated contestants?

FYI, the contest is the fund raising project of Lyceum Chorale for their upcoming international tour.

During the finals, I didn't sell popularity tickets anymore thinking that I can win by focusing on my musicality. It's a singing contest anyway not a MONEY contest. Crisel(the winner) asking me about my tickets and she told me that she remit a lot of tickets on the final day. I told her, I'm not going to remit anymore.

Then announcement of winners came, I told Makato Inoue, one of the guy finalists, that he's my bet. He has a very wonderful voice. He peformed well and delivered his song smoothly. There's no way he would not get any place. Even my classmates were expecting him to win. He told me that I'm his bet too.

When I was called as the second placer, the audience became quiet. Only my classmates were shouting for me. I flashed a smile to Mak. I'm expecting him to be called as the champion, I even told him, "MAK YOU WILL BE THE WINNER!" but a different name was called. I was shocked. A wildcard won. As Crisel accepting her trophy, the other finalists were shouting "wildcardwildcard".Some were shouting "andaya! bakit puro wildcard?!".

The third placer is Ate jen, a wildcard at an average of 90%. The second placer is yours truly, Anna Jean at an average of 90.7%. And the winner is Crisel, a wildcard at an average of 91%.

This story can be justified by the people who had watched all the contestants' performances. They know who deserve winning and who's not. I'm expecting some of the boys having a place. They were all good. I don't know what happened. My mom recorded the whole program. I've watched and listened to it. I can see the disappointment on the boys' eyes after the announcement.

I had been keeping all this thoughts by myself but I couldn't. I had talked to other eliminated contestants last Saturday and they wanted to complain. They could have been at the finals too and win. But I can't do anything now.=( Everything happened already. Maybe, everybody will be happy if the winner is not a wildcard. Or if a wildcard is formally competed by all eliminated contestants and not just picked by whoever chosen them to be finalists.

I had accepted my place the moment I was called. It's a blessing and I'm very happy!!!=) I didn't asked God to let me win but I asked Him just to give me what I deserve. And I believe that I deserve what I've got.=)

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!!!

HIMIG LYCEAN 2009 finals, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=)

Finally, natapos na din ang paglusot ko sa butas ng karayom after I was announced as one of the finalist of Himig Lycean 2009.

There were 46 contestants who passed the auditions but only 26 were qualified to compete during the elimination round yesterday. Yey! And I was one of them.

Nakakatuwa lang kasi, sobrang naiiyak na talga ko kahapon ng madaling araw because sobrang walng lumalabas na boses skin!!!!!! habang nagshshower ako, nagvocalize ako and ampangit ng lumalabas skin na boses.. I almost gave up. I turned out singing all the offertory songs I know to vocalize my voice. That's my way of offering and praying to our Lord for my performance that day.

AND SUPER EFFECTIVE TALAGA ANG PRAYERS! Miracle talaga.. I found my voice again during my performance. Astig! Salamat talga sa mga tumulong skin magdasal. God is great!

Then, it was the announcement of the 10 finalist. The first seven names that was called were all boys.. woah! I was so nervooooooooous! I thought I will never be called already so I wasn't expecting anymore. Finally, I heard " contestant no.3" being called by the emcee.. And yes! It was me! I made it!! wohoo!

What was surprising is the 2 finalists left were boys too.. OMG.. boys category ba ito? haha.. I'm the only rose among the thorns! okay.. grabe..naloka talga ako..Pano ko kakalabanin ang 9 na Adan?! haha.. Itatayo ko ang bandera ng mga EBA! lol.. But I really am too happy.

That was an answered prayer. Thank you to all who supported me. Continue to pray for me till finals.

Whatever may happen in the finals, it's already a victory for me being part of it. It's already an achievement for me. And to all the girls out there, WE ROCK!

Baby Name Advisor from:tope

haha..papost na din ito.. natuwa ako eh..thanks kris!

Anna Jean Jara Fernandez

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The very first time I called to Brewrats (Dec. 22, 2008)

Yep! it's a nice experience..=)

Every monday sa brewrats is a poetry day.. so brewsters like me can share their poetry skills..

eh..xempre..may mga naibaon akong mga gawa kong tula sa aking baul..haha..writer kuno..and ayun..tumwag ako sa brewrats para ishare yung tula kong "Why Can't You See?"..

well..you know nainlove ako noon sa isang lalaking friend na manhid..haha..=) and ayun ang theme ng poem kong yan..alam kong maraming makakarelate..kaya nainspire akong isulat yan..haha..=)

moving on, nagulat ako ng sagutin nila ang phone..and yes! nagpakilala ako bilang A.J. ng Cainta..haha..kasi malapit lang ako kina Tado na taga Marikina and Ramon Bautista na Taga-Rizal din ata..i'm not sure ha..pero lagi kasi nilang pinaguusapan ang Sta. Lucia East Grand Mall..hehe

ayun..sabi ko kay Ramon "Ramon, my friends and I were calling during the UP Live Aids Silver sa Up Theater pero di mo kami pinapansin..suplado..hehe" ayun sabi nia suplado talag xa sa personal.. sabi nman ni Tado..sana daw nagpapansin ako..haha..next time na lang daw ulit..

ayun..after nun..binasa ko na poem ko and it's good nman daw and Ramon said "write some more" Yey! hehe..

tapos maingay yung puppy ko.. rinig na rinig sa phone..kaya sabi ni Tado "tell your dog to shut up" wahahaha! biro lang namn..

ayun,,just wanna share..kaenjoy talaga..lagi akong tumatawag sa Magic 89.9..pero first time ko lang sa RT at sa Brewrats and nakakatuwa silang kausap..=)

Thanks Tado and Ramon!=) hope makatawag ako ulit..

soundtrack to my life (from carlo)

try this..you'll surely enjoy!

Music Shuffle: The Soundtrack To Your Life

Opening Credits:: Say it right - Nelly Furtado (oohh..sensual..hehe)

Your mom finds out she's pregnant with you:: I don't want you to go- Kyla (hala..muntik pa ata ako malaglag sa tiyan nia..hehe)

Slideshow of her pregnancy:: Time of my life- David Cook (bongga!)

While she's delivering you:: Angels Brought Me here- Carrie Underwood (wow)

Your first birthday:: Bartender- Akon (wahahaha..first bday pa lang bar na)

You growing up:: Famous Last Words- My Chemical Romance (bato)

Your first day of school:: Sexy Love- Ne-yo (wahahaha)

Meeting your first friend:: Still Haven't found what I'm looking for- David Cook

Your first day of middle school:: Umbrella- Rihanna (tag-ulan lagi?) hehe

Meeting your first crush:: Sharp Dressed Man- ZZ Top

Your first kiss:: Home- Daughtry (hala..gustong umuwi?!hehe)

Fighting with your parents:: All out of Love- Air Supply

Fighting with your friends::Happy Together -David Cook (wahaha..salbahe..mabenta sa shuffle si cook ha..)

Breaking up:: Ang Pag-ibig kong ito- Moonstar88 (bagay)

Your first day of high school:: Waiting in Vain - MYMP

Your first time having sex:: Superhuman- Chris Brown and Keri Hilson (kaloka)

Your graduation ceremony:: I wanna grow old with you- Adam Sandler (cute)

Your first day of college:: Always be my Baby- David Cook (whaha..halatang maka-Cook)

Your first college party::Always- Atlantic Star (sweet)

Meeting your true love:: Beauty and Madness- Fra lippo lippi (aw! kilig)

Getting married:: On my own- Whitney Houston (kakakasal pa lang hiwalay na agad..haha)

Finding out you/your spouse is pregnant:: Ever After- Bonnie Bailey (ansaya!)

Having your first child:: The way you look tonight - Michael Buble

Getting old:: September 12- Rain (aw!=])

You end up in the hospital:: I believe- Fantasia Barrino

Your death:: The Music of the Night - Phantom of the Opera (it fits to my personality)

Your funeral:: We're all in this together (Graduation Remix) -HSM3 cast (aw!kakantahin ng friends ko..)

People's Themes

Yours:: Spoliarium- Imago

Your best friend:: Fergielicious- Fergie (penguin oh!)

Your first crush:: If I were a boy- Beyonce (wahaha)

Your mom:: Pasubali -Spongecola

Your dad:: So sick- Ne-yo (hala)

Your sibling(s):: The One you Love- Glen Frey

Your worst enemy:: Shut Up and Drive- Rihanna (wohoo!!!!)

Your significant other:: I want it all - Evans HSM3

Your first child:: High School Musical (wahaha..magiging performer ang anak ko)

Your first grandchild:: Get Me -MYMP

What You Listen To When...

You're happy: Bubbly- Colbie Callait

You're upset:: Can I have this dance- Vanessa Hudgens and Zac Efron

You're angry::Glamorous- Fergie

You're depressed:: Before I let you go - Freestyle (ouch..tagos)

You're cleaning:: Tattoed On my Mind- D' Sound

You're working out:: Cassiopeia- Rain (my favorite love song)

You're bored:: Bye bye - Mariah Carey (tama LSS ko to eh..haha)

You're doing homework:: Tell me where it hurts-mymp

You're eating::How deep is your love- Beegees (sweet)

You're thinking:: No one - Alicia Keys

You're going to sleep:: Hate that I love you

You're feeling sick:: For all of my life - MYMP

You're going shopping::Mad- Ne-yo (ayos!)

You're hanging out with your friends:: Low- Flo-rida ft. T-pain (kwela to..haha)

You're on a date:: Me and You - Cassie(haha..date nga!)

You're having sex:: Straight Ahead - David Cook (wahahahha)

You're at a party:: Better in Tine - Leona Lewis

You're driving:: One two Step - Ciara feat. Missy Elliot (soundtrip)

You're on a plane:: The Closer I get to you- MYMP (hmm..no comment)

You're relaxing:: Simpleng Tao - Gloc9 (heheheehehe)

You're on vacation:: Just One - James Ingram

You're about to post this blog:Sorry Blame it on me- Akon (wahahha..sorry)

*Thanks Carlo!

Sensya na yung iba..paulitulit yung artist.. may album kasi..=)

UP LIVE AIDS SILVER Anak ka ng Peyups!

It was brought to us by UP Samaskom.. it's an organization in University of the Philippines of Masscom Students there.

It's too good that our professor in Broadcast Media was a member of that org before. Since it's their 25th anniversary and it's UP's centennial celebration too, the show was participated by the alumni of UP Samaskom. We were all invited! yes! Thanks to our prof. Wally Labajo. He let us experience their most special show in their history since it's their silver.

The show started later than it had to start. But it's ok. All the time we waited just worth it! The show really rocked the whole UP Theater. Everyone bursted with boisterous laughter especially when the impersonator of the present first lady of United States, Michelle Obama got out of the stage. Man! She-slash-he (cause he's gay) is really an epitome of Mrs. Obama. She states how we CAN do anything. She was stating "Yes we can, coke in can and orocan" anything but can all over.

Then on the pageant for Diliman Darling, our prof acts as the host, dressed like a lady and proved us, his students, that he's really a bitch. lol. He also had a role as a cheerleader of UP Pepe Squad..yes pepe..hihi=)

There was also their own version of Internet sensation Charice Pempengco , Amber Glamourosa, who has her tagalized song Ga-la-a-ma-o-ra-u-sa..hehe.. being syllabicated with our traditional Abakada alphabet.

What I really can't forget was the UP Oblation Run!!!! The mouth of the audience including mine left hanging open when at the end of the segment, there came running nude guys! Gosh! I've seen a lot of birds out there huh..haha..=) Well, that's one of my favorite part because they spoofed the Don't-lie-to-me segment of John Lapus where the one who impersonated him had a production numbers too.

One of my favorites also was the ISANG-PINGGANG-PANSIT portion. Three samapaguita vendors battled for the pearl of one rich lady. But they have to do their best to act their own version of isang-pinggang-pansit piece just like in Little Miss Philippines talent protion. One is a "maldita" girl who idolizes Scarlet of "Iisa Pa Lamang", the other is a girl who idolizes Judy Ann Santos who is always being bullied and the other one is gay. They delivered the lines of the piece with their own personality which was really funny especially the Scarlet-girl. In the end, no one won because the pearl was snatched. (Our prof here had a cameo role as one of joggers around UP Oval.)

Next, is the feature of the first and only student of UP. She had the ribbon-cutting of Ikot jeep and isaw stand. Too funny but the time had been dragged by this segment.

And there went Tuesday Vargas. She acts as Silveria who was hit by lightning when she was born and had a mark on her forehead just like Harry Potter. She has a super hero characteristics bec. she was so fast. She just stated the story of her life which was really funny. Tuesday acted well. She was so sexy, pretty and hilarious. I even had a pic with her at the end of the show!

And the last part was the UP lagoon feature which was the combination of Little mermaid and Dyesebel with a twist. Though I wasn't paying attention anymore on that part still the costume was so captivating.

I salute all the scriptwriters of the show. It lasted for four hours but every part was still clear in my mind even though days passed already from the show. Our class has still hangover of the show. We keep on repeating all the funny lines from the show. I'll never forget this. Although the ticket was expensive, I didn't had any regrets.

Hay.. I still wish that someday, we can produce a spectacular show like that. I'd even wish I'm studying at UP..haha..=) But of course, I'm proud to be Lycean!!!=)

Nang magpagabi kami ni Em sa Powerbooks at mabuwisit sa isang bading..

hehe..as requested by Emerolf O. Felix, i-bblog ko ang mga naranasan nmin kahapon sa Robinsons Place Manila..upisahan natin sa umpisa (malamang diba?!)

Ang uwian nmin pag Wednesday is 11:30am..and ang plano lang daw ni Em ay pumasok,sumama skin sa mall and umuwi..pero iba ang nangyari..eto na:afternoon, biglaang nagkameeting ang Broadcast Media Group 2 (antagal..gutom na kmi) natapos ang meeting at nagpunta kmi nina Kris, Jaypee and Em sa Mcdo para kumain.. Si Em, ndi DAW nagdala ng pera..di dw kasi inaasahan na hahapunin kmi..hindi xa kumain..haha..

pagkatapos eh sinamahan pa rin nia ko sa Robinsons Manila para kuhain ang aking Twilight bookmark na libre sa pagbili ko ng "New Moon" sa Powerbooks..aba may libreng Haagen-Dazs ice cream din un ha..=) nagtagal kmi sa pagbasa ng books sa Powerbooks at sa sobrang kakatawa ay nakaramdam din ng gutom si Em..haha..at dahil naguiguilty ako, nagpromise ako na ililibre ko xa ng food..aba! magrequest ba daw sa Aristocrat's?! hehe..eh ngMcdo nga lang ako knina..nagrequest din ng Max's(don't worry Em..sa susunod na lang tau kain jan)..napunta kmi sa KFC..paorder na sana kmi ng biglang magbago ng isip..naalala nmin si Jolibee..hehe..punta kmi ng Jolllibee.. Ang lalaki, niloloko lang pla ako, may dala naman plang PERA..aun..nakarma..muntik ng madulas at matapunan ng pineapple juice..hehe..buti na lang pinalitan ng manager..thank you=)

tapos muntik na kming manood ng twilight..kaso andaming tao..corny..hehe..saka sa Friday pa nmin balak manood ng mga friends nmin..=)

Nang mabusog eh bumalik ng Powerbooks(adik kasi kmi sa libro).. nagbabasa ako ng walng kwentang UNAUTHORIZE GUIDE TO TWILIGHT SERIES ni Lois cheverchever..nakalimutan ko ung surname,ang mahal ng libro nia,di nman mganda..hehe..=) May dumating na BUNGANGERANG bading na agaw-eksena sa napakatahimik na Powerbooks.. ginulo pa nia ung mga sales clerk dun..kung ano2ng hinahanap.. kelangan pang isigaw ung "miss, meron ba kayong bag para sa laptop?" duh?wala nman xang laptop..hehe..=) tapos iba2 na ang tinatanong..pati twilight and mga planner..grabe ang ingay talaga.. di kmi makaconcentrate sa pagbabasa..ang EPAL nia.. lahat ng tao napapatingin s knya..

ang masaklap pa, tumbi pa skin..eh nakapatong yung bag ko sa couch sa tabi ko..sbi nia "MISS, excuse me" sabay irap and flip pa kunwari ng hair eh boy-cut naman ung hair nia..epal talaga! salita ng salita ng english without knowing na communication students kmi ni Em, eh mali nman grammar nia..haha..=) in the end, ung maliit na planner lang ung nabili nia..bwisit! GREAT PRETENDER..

ala lang..nashare ko lang..nakakainis lang kasi ung mga agaw-eksena na nagppretend lang na powerful and all.. kunwari madaming pera, wala nman..and manners naman noh! alam niang andaming nagbabasa tapos napakaingay nia!!!hmp..hehe..(breathe aj)

ayun..sa sobrang pagkawili sa pagbabasa ng books, napansin nmin na madilim na pla..hala! hehe..andami na plang text ng mama ko skin..=0 haha..edi picture2 muna kmi ni Em.. first time ksi nming gabihin sa RP manila..haha..=) ansaya..

nga pla sa buong araw nmin sa Powerbooks, eto lang ang paulit-ulit (mga 20 people ata) naming naririnig sa mga lumalapit sa customer service: "MISS, WALA NA PO BA KAYONG TWILIGHT?"

haha..wala na talaga..nagpareserve lang din ako noon eh..=)

ayun..nashare ko lang..sana DALHIN NATIN YUNG MANNERS NATIN KAHIT SAAN TAYO MAGPUNTA!=)

THANK GOD, I'm now a scholar!

hay..sa wakas, sinagot na ni Lord ang panalangin ko..at nagbunga na din ang aking pagsisikap sa pag-aaral..=)

My General Point Average is 1.51..that had granted me a partial scholarship..=) so i'll just have to pay the half of our tuition..

sayang nga lang kasi kung kasma sa pagcompute ng average ang grade ko sa NSTP, magiging 1.46 ang aking average which would qualify me sana as a FULL scholar. hay..

unfortunately..ndi pla kasma sa computation un..cinareer ko pa un..huhu..

and ang nakakainis lang..dahil lang sa sobra kong .01 ndi ako pinayagn maging full..hay..

ok lang..babawi na lang ako next sem.. i'll pursue the full scholarship..at least, mkktulong din ung partial scholarship smin..

hehe..gnun pla ang pakiramdam ng dean's lister,,nakakataba ng puso..parang masasabi mo n lng sa srili mo, "kaya ko pla yun?!".. Thank God tlga! di nia ko pinabayaan.. ngaun, may magandang part na sa transcript ko,,hehe..

and I wanna thank also the people who have been around me last sem..=) I enjoyed my studies. NEXT SEM ULI!!!!

hay..too bad nagkahiwahiwalay na ang A101..I'll miss our bondings guys!!

A-102 na ko..which is ok lang rin skin kasi mas maganda ang sked and kaclose ko ung mga tao dun kesa sa mga naiwan sa A101..except also for Carlo and other friends. hay.. loyal kasi kau sa 101..hehe..

ayan.. may sarili ng section ang ROYAL FAMILY..hehe go A102!!! wala na ang orig na 101..hinaluan na ng iba..kainis! hehe..

aun lang..part of me is excited to go back to school next friday but part of me is not, thinking that the people that i'll be dealing with will not be the real A101 that I loved anymore..hay..

may tanong ako..baka sakaling masagot niyo..

bakit kaya may mga taong dumarating lang sa buhay mo para paibigin ka?

pero pag nararamdaman niyang unti-unti ka ng nahuhulog sa kanya, bigla na lang siyang lalayo..

kayo, naramdaman nio na ba yun?

OLPHS (kiddie school) reunion organizer

aw!!! it's so superduper hard pla maging reunion organizer!!!! grr.. akalain mong nakayanan kong ndi mag-online for one whole week!!

grabe! Pero in fairness, nakakaenjoy din lalo na pag umo-oo silang sasama sila. Napakahirap nga lang maghagilap ng mga classmates mong 5 years mo ng hindi nakikita..antindi!

samu't saring reaksiyon kapag sumasagot ng telepono..may nagugulat, may hindi na ko kilala..hehe..ouch! at matatandaan na lang pag sinabi kong ako yung maliit nilang kaklase..haha..nakakaloka yun!!!

i have to think kung saang place and muntikan pang ganapin sa bahay nmin..buti na lang hindi..hassle yun..haha.. and I decided na maganda sa Rest house na may pool..enjoy yun! kaso ang mahal pero mukhang carry naman nmin(sana)..hahahaha..and dun na nga kmi..

hay..anyway..OLPHS stands for Our Lady of Perpetual Help School sa Santolan, Pasig City po iyon sa mga ndi nakakaalam.. And dun ako nag-aral for 2 years only.. Grade 5 and Grade 6..oh diba?! tapos ako pa nging organizer eh mas matagal silang nagkasama..hehe

pero ok lang..yahoo!!! excited na ko sa Oct.24!!!! makikita ko na sila ulit and makikita na din nila ko..nakakakaba..hehe..=)

ayun lang..matatapos na rin ang pagiging stressed-out ko dahil sa reunion na yan..bow..

newest milestone in my life

finals had just come and i'm really so excited because finally i'm officially a second year student!!!=)

well, that's the consequence of being a transferee.. i had to take all the minor subjects of all freshmen students taking up in lyceum.. but

MIND YOU, this has never been a regret for me because I really enjoyed my first sem as a Lycean! I'm so happy to meet the persons who have been very important to me in just a nick time.

Here's a list of unforgettable happenings in my life since I transferred:

1. I've become a part of class A101. love you guys!
2. I became the official "ate" aj of the class which is I think a good way for me to earn respect. I'm feeling the seniority of having experienced college life ahead of them.
3. I became the adviser of my closest friends to stay away from the college temptations. (hala..angel?!)
4. It's my very first time not to join any organizations in the university although I had to admit that I almost cry during the last day of the Lyceum Chorale's auditions. (mahirap pla pigilan ang passion)
5. I've got to focus with my studies and had a very good performance in class.
6. I realized that being an irreg is so enjoying!
7. I enjoyed my NSTP class. (halos lahat kami irreg)
8. It's my very first time to have a favorite professor.. I love you Ma'am Magno!!! I love english!!! (wish she could read this)
9. I celebrated the happiest birthday of my life with my blockmates!!! My debut!
10. I experienced my first time to report in class! wahahaha
11. I've known my hipag, Kris.
12. I've known my newest guy bestfriend, Carlo!!! yikee
13. I had my first experience in water rafting!
14. I had climbed the fatal lake Yambo at Laguna. (wahat a muddy and risky experience)
15. I had climbed Mt. Samat and had the same feeling when you reached the top of Statue of Liberty. (hala..pano ko nalaman?)
16. I became the choreographer of our class for our PE finals!
17. I explored the historical Intramuros.
18. I memorized the locations of all shops in SM Manila and went to Robinson's Place Manila for the very first time.
19. My USB flashdrive had a virus because of the computer in our classroom. (grr..)
20. My lowest midterm grade is 1.5!!! (wish I could be a scholar)

wohoo..Thank You Lord, for making all of these happened. I feel so blessed with all the things in my life now. Sana next sem, ganun pa rin. I can't believe na within 5 months, parang andamidami ng nangyari.

And nalulungkot ako kasi time will come na hihiwalayan ko din ang A-101. *sigh*

Thank You for letting me share all my talents and knowledge. There are more semesters to come pa. Kaya ko 'to!

TIRANAMIN TO (japanese cuisine) =) pls. read hehe

if you wanna listen to "light on" of david cook

click this link:

http://www.popeater.com/music/article/exclusive-david-cook-turns-the-light-on/185647

"Sana lahat ng babae katulad ni.."

"Sana lahat ng babae katulad ni ate aj" said Bernard Ferrer, one of my blockmates and one of my closest friends.

Even Carlo agreed of what Bernie said and stated all the reasons why they said that. Well those statements really made me flattered, of course. But somehow, make me sad because the person I love is just taking me for granted, not even realizing my worth.

I became every guy's would be wishing for a girlfriend just to make you love me. But still you don't.

I don't know if he knows I'm pertaining to him and he would even be surprised if he discovered that he's the one I'm actually talking about. *sigh*

On my previous blogs, I already stated that I had given up already of what I feel for him. FLASHBACK: I got trashed when I confessed my love for him,elk. kaasar. ang kapal ng mukha. His reason: " I love her more than I love you." ARAY! wasak talaga ako dun. Oo. Alam ko minahal mo ako. But you never told me kung ano ba talga ako sa iyo. Ansabi mo lang "ewan". What the heck?!

Oh sige. Ganun pla. Edi inaccept ko because I don't want to force myself to the one-who's-loving-someone-else-but-saying-that-he-loves-me-but-does'nt-know-what-is-me-in-his-life (hindi namn gano mahaba eh noh?!) Malandi ka kasi. Yun ung mahirap sau. You're enjoying that someone is loving you while the girl you love doesn't love you back. And you're making a lot of girls as rebounds. And I am one of them.

I'm so tanga talga kasi until now, I can't forget what I feel for you. I'm living with all our sweet memories and can't even erase all your messages for me. Antanga ko kasi nagtapat ako sa'yo kahit sobrang hindi worth it. Alam ko alam mong ikaw ang tinutukoy ko. Huwag kang magmanhidmanhidan. Lagi mong sinasabing "manhid lang siguro talga ako". Marami kang nasaktan na girls dahil sa kamnhidan mo. hay..

I'M REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO GET OVER YOU. A lot of months had passed by already since the day I promised myself just to treat you as my brother.

Ang pagkakamali ko lang siguro ay sobrang naging mahalaga ka sa'kin ng hindi mo nalalaman.

I decided to blog what I feel thinking that it would help me to lose all those bitterness in me. Nang wala na din akong maitago. Hope that this would be the last blog I'll be talking about you.=(

sana, may mapagbalingan na ko ng pagmamahal ko na nasayang lang sa'yo.

newest single of David Cook "Light On"

LIGHT ON

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

got this from DavidCookOfficial.com

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my 18th birthday =)

It wasn't the most extravagant debut anyone could ever have.. but it was the best birthday i've ever had!

I didn't know my birthday would be that happy..eh kasi namn 2 weeks before my birthday eh wala pa rin kaming plano ni mama..sobrang nalulungkot na talaga ako..akala ko..walang mangyayaring kakaiba sa bday ko eh it should be extraordinary sa lahat ng birthdays ko nga kasi it's my debut..

one week before my bday, sobrang nadedepressed na ko kasi wla pa kming pinaplano..hay..=( until August 24 (sunday) my parents asked me what's my request on my birthday.. aun! akala ko ala na silang pakialam eh! whew!

edi sabi ko..kahit wala ng handaan kasi super gahol na talga sa oras diba nman..besides, walang naprepare na budget sina mama kasi ung pang-debut ko dapat eh napunta sa pagpapagamot ng kuya ko..pero ok lang un..

my plan:
gusto ko makasama ko ung mga kaibigan ko.. eh ndi namn puedeng pagsabayin lahat ng friends ko noh! so prinopose ko sa mama ko na puedeng iba't-ibang celebration or day ang mangyayari per set of friends ko..aun.. pumayag.. so i had a 3-day celebration! yehey..

mas ok na rin un kasi kung samasama..ndi ko alam kung kanino ko ibibigay ung attention..plus imbes na magenjoy ako masstressed-out pa ko..haha..

and then from August 25-29..halos araw-araw na kong binabati ng mahal kong blockmates(A-101) ng advance happy bday..oh diba? nagcountdown talaga sila..and xempre saktong friday magiging bday ko kaya kinontrata na nila ko na cla dapat ang kasama ko on sept. 5..haha..xempre naman!

aun from sept. 1 to sept. 5- topic buong week sa room ung debut ko..haha..=)

sept. 3 (wednesday)- for the first time nagabsent ako sa NSTP class ko..shopping ang drama namin ni mama..un na ang pinakabonding ko with her and nagpaschedule ng pagpaparebond sa dermcare kinabukasan..
sept. 4- diretso sa Dermcare at nagpaganda..haha..=) at 11:00 pm na ko nakauwi..

sept. 5- the happiest day of my life (talaga?!) hehe.. pagpasok ko pa lang..napansin na nila ang biggest transformation ko..=) hehe.. and syempre i'm so touched kasi naman ung mga classmates ko nakasuot ng green, purple and pink (fave colors ko)..ansaya..aun..bati-bati.. at mukhang umaayon pa ang mga profs kasi sa 3 subjs. nmin for the day eh wala kaming ginawa..i've got time to take pics with each and everyone of A-101..xempre kasama si sir ian tabora..haha..=) and ndi pa nagsisismula ang kasiyahan ko nun ha..after IT subject, nagsimba kami sa Manila Cathedral.. ambabait talaga ng mga blockmates ko..sumama pa cla sa pagsimba ko..and then bonding na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wohoo..bili muna ng new shoes sa dept. store..then, i treat them (xempre ung closest friends ko na sa A-101) sa Mcdo..haha..children's party? aun..and dun nila binigay ung mga gifts nila sakin..answeet.. grabe..with a giant card kung saan nakasulat lahat ng messages ng buong A-101..grabe..nagulat ako.. ndi namn cla handa noh..and ung manager ng Mcdo lumapit sakin at binigyan ako ng giant baloon..haha at sinulatan nila ulit ng messages..walng kasawasawa.. at after nun..kantahan na.. grabe..cmula ng lumipat ako ng Lyceum..ndi pa ko kumakanta sa maraming tao ulit..hehe..(ndi kasama ung pagkanta ko sa church ha) i miss that! and then aun nagwawala ung mga kasama ko sa karaoke..haha..kanyakanyang trip,,hehe..ui..andaming tinatamaan..haha.. and aun..habang nagyayari un skin sa SM Manila, nagcecelebrate namn ang family ko sa house kahit wala ako..haha..andaming handa kaso ndi ko natikman..haha.. when i got home? IT ENDED UP WITH A FRIDAY NIGHT PARTY!wohoo!

sept.6- bonding with my one and only penguin (with nat) sa SM marikina..haha..puro sm eh noh?akala mo sponsor..haha.. anyway, my penguin thought ndi ako naging masaya naming dalawa..ehem! tin, I want you to know na never akong nalungkot sa lahat ng time na magkasama tayo.. still no one can compare our friendship.. we'll be happy always.. salamt sa pagpapasaya sakin..sa kahit ano pano pang paraan, masaya ako basta ikaw kasama ko.. i love you pengs!
and then, diretso sa celebration sa choir sa bahay..paparty ni tito Ed for me!! yihee.. aun ballroomballroom cla.. at pagod na talaga ko..

sept. 7- i'm sick na talaga.. over-fatigue..grabe, pero kelangan ko pa rin magsimba early in the morning sa church nmin para tanggapin angt first sunday blessings..=) aun..ok nman kahit paos nakakanta pa rin ako..ansaya with special bday greetings pa from father.. i'm really so blessed!!!!! pag-uwi..extended kainan with my relatives.. yey! finally i can rest na..so kapagod pla magdebut..haha..=)

and the most of all, I wanna thank our Father Almighty for making my debut very special..=)

hope my wishes will come true!

usapang payong..=)

last July, days before our field trip to Laguna, my mother bought me Fribella para gamitin ko (Xempre..hehe) sa trip nmin kung sakaling umulan..

unfortunately, after 3 days pa lang eh naiwan ko ung payong sa room.. tangatanga..nagpatuyo pa kasi ako eh..nakakainis nawala sa isip ko kaya nakauwi na ko.. walangyang bagyong Julian yan.haha..sabayan pa ng pagdating nina marvin at jolina(what the heck..haha) sa lyceum..pero in fairness ang pretty and ang bait tlaga ni jolens..wahaha..aun..tuluyan ng naglaho ang aking payong..hay..talagang pinuntahan ko pa ang janitor's office at security office dahil sa payong na yan..kaso wala na talaga..kung cno man ang kumuha nun..asar talaga

edi aun super natakot ako dahil sobrang sasapakin talaga ako ng nanay ko pag nalaman niang nwala ko ung investment na payong na yan..ewan ko ba kung anong meron sa Fibrella kung bkit ang mahal ng mga payong dun..wala namang ginto ung payong..haha=)

edi un..sobrang naloka talaga ko kung pano ko mapapalitan ung payong and kung pano ko sasabihin ng ndi ako magkakapasa sa mukha..wahahaha.. grabe! wala akong pera...wah..

edi nagdecide n lang akong bumili ng sarili ko..i bought this 150 pesos windproof umbrella sa sm manila dept. store..aysus! wala pa sa kalahati ng presyo ng payong na nawala ko..wahahaha..at xempre pinili ko ung kulay green kasi maganda xa sa mata ko..haha..eh maroon (hello?nanay ko kasi pumili) ung nwala kong payong..haha..

ndi ko na natupad na gayahin na lang ung color kasi ayaw ko naman talaga yung maroon..hehe..grabe..nagdaan ang napakaraming araw..tinatago ko ang nagbagong kulay ng payong kay mama para ndi nia malaman..haha..ndi ko pa rin sinasabi..

hanggang umabot sa 2 months..at nasabi ko na din sa wakas kay mama na nawala ko yung payong sa loob lmang ng 3 araw na pagakakabili namin,,haha.. AT HINDI SIYA NAGALIT!!!!

wahahaha..alam nio kung bakit? dahil bday ko na nun kinabukasan..wahahahahaha..

and now ndi na ko naguiguilty tuwing binubukas ko ung bago kong payong..wahaha..sa sobrang tuwa ko dahil hindi siya nagalit, pinili kong ikwento sa inyo..wahahahaha!

sana tinapos niyo tong wala kong kwentang blog..haha..

LESSON:
It's good to be free and true to anybody..haha..mahirap magtago ng kasalanan sa isang tao..

I'M NOT GUILTY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!wohooooooo..

I-PHONE ON GLOBE

got this article from globe's website. ang galing! globe ang nakakuha ng distribution ng i-phone.
Whew! i thought smart na ang makakakuha eh..=)

Globe Telecom to Bring iPhone 3G to the Philippines on August 22

MANILA – August 6, 2008 – Globe Telecom today announced that it will bring iPhone 3G to the Philippines on August 22. iPhone 3G combines all the revolutionary features of iPhone plus 3G networking that is twice as fast*, built-in GPS for expanded location-based mobile services, and iPhone 2.0 software which includes support for Microsoft Exchange ActiveSync and runs hundreds of third party applications available through the new App Store.

“We are very excited to launch iPhone 3G here in the Philippines. Beginning August 22, Globe is bringing to the Filipinos the best browsing experience through the revolutionary iPhone 3G on our 3G/HSDPA network,” said Gerardo C. Ablaza Jr., president and CEO of Globe Telecom.

Globe will be offering special post paid plans that will allow consumers to experience the exciting features of iPhone 3G. These special plans will come with free local mobile internet hours and free Wi-Fi browsing hours (in areas covered by Globe Wireless Internet Zones). This, together with Globe’s call and text rates, ensures excellent connectivity. iPhone 3G will also be available on existing Globe tariff plans.

Consumers interested in purchasing iPhone 3G with Globe postpaid and prepaid offers are encouraged to start making their reservations beginning August 6 by calling Globe’s 24-Hour Call-in Service via landline (632)7301000 or 211 via toll-free mobile or visiting www.iphone3g.globe.com.ph.

iPhone 3G operates on Wi-Fi, EDGE and 3G networks to give the best e-mail, web browsing, search and maps applications for a mobile phone. 3G provides the subscriber faster access to the Internet as well as the capability to transmit and receive data in various forms such as photos, video and audio.

Globe Telecom is a leading telecommunications company in the Philippines with more than 21 million mobile subscribers. As a pioneer, Globe continues to be a part of the revolution that’s connecting millions of people across the country and around the world. Beyond technology, Globe’s business is truly shaped by the bonds that tie Filipinos together. Communications is ultimately about relationships, and this drives the company to innovate and constantly find easy and relevant ways to enrich people’s lives.

want to know me??

i got this one because of cheska..thanks!

Anna Jean is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Anna Jean will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Anna Jean an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Anna Jean is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Anna Jean is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Anna Jean doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Anna Jean is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Anna Jean is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Anna Jean has a desire for attention. People around Anna Jean will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

In reference to Anna Jean's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Anna Jean slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Anna Jean can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Anna Jean is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Anna Jean basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Anna Jean is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Anna Jean is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Anna Jean changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Anna Jean feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

Anna Jean has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Anna Jean exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Anna Jean allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Anna Jean has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Anna Jean has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Anna Jean fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Anna Jean has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Anna Jean just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Anna Jean finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

OH MY.. THIS WAS CREEPY..THE LAST ONE MEJO CONTRAST XA SKIN..PERO BAKA NUNG BATA AKO GANUN AKO..HEHE..ANYWAY..THIS IS GOOD I'VE GOT TO REALIZE SOME OF MY NEGATIVE TRAITS..TRY THIS!=)